In my first blog post, I mentioned how one of the reasons for having a blog on my site was to share with you the process of building my own business. Well this is one of those posts. I am slowly and painstakingly learning a lot about myself and about this whole process. It is not easy. In fact, it is really hard. Over the next few weeks I will be sharing some of the lessons I am learning with you. Below is one of the first lessons and quite possibly the hardest for me.
Patience. By nature, I am not a patient person. My husband often amazes me because for the most part (except for when he’s driving) he has the patience of proverbial Job. And I, well I on the other hand, do not. I knew in my head that building my own business was going to be a long process, but I hadn’t really accepted that fact completely. In my heart I was hoping that somehow it would just take off on its own and I would be getting calls and emails and people would be clamoring and signing up for me to take their picture.s (I know, I know, silly girl. But a girl can dream right?) ;)
For those of you who don’t know, I work part time at a bank. My amazing hubs who supports and believes in me even when I don’t believe in myself has been so good to let me work part time to give me the chance to pursue my dream. (Thanks babe!).
Originally I was hoping that I would only have to work this for a few months. I imagined that I would be booking so many clients and getting so busy that I would need to and be financially able to quit. Now I’m realizing and accepting the fact that for now I need to settle in for the long haul. I will not be leaving my part time job any time soon, and I’m learning to accept and be okay with that.
This photography business is very relational and personal. At least for me it is. And relationships take time to build (can you smell a future blog post on this?). So for now, I will accept the fact that for the unforeseeable future I will be working part time as I build my full time business. It’s that “unforeseeable” part that gets me so down and discouraged sometimes, because I’m so itching to photograph and create. I know my time will come if I keep working for it. It may not be as soon as I had hoped, but it will come. And in the mean time, I am becoming more of the person I want to be because I am being pushed to cultivate patience and perseverance in my life. I am also building new friendships that I wouldn’t have had otherwise if I didn’t have this job. I’m learning to be grateful, but that’s another post for another day. ;)
Thanks for stopping by and sharing with me. I hope you all are having a good week!
p.s. Below is a pic of my fearless leader out on a hike together the other day. This pic captures us perfectly. He’s usually charging full speed ahead, and I’m usually lollygagging behind. But you have to admit, he looks pretty good from behind ;)